Thursday, February 18, 2010

Rocks as storytellers


rocks piled
high or low
images styled
part of a whole
history, praise
stories unfold
passing days
stories told
-tkaeu

(pic to the right - an inuksuk built by Peter Irnig - unsure of photographer-maybe Peter Irnig-photo on Flicker and wikipedia posted by Boliyou)

Tracy Niemeyer, of Maple Ridge, British Columbis, calls the urge to stack rocks "spiritual".


When I heard this comment on an NPR news story, my mind instantly began to think of all the stories of "rock stacking" I had read in the Bible. Time and time again Jewish ancestors were stacking rocks as a memorial or testament in obedience to God for various events.

These are only a few examples of what seems like countless stories of stacking of rocks I've read in the Bible...
Genesis 8...Noah builds an altar following the flood

Genesis 12...Abraham marks the beginning of the Israelite journey with the building of three altars

Exodus 17...Moses builds an altar to declare "The Lord is my Banner"

Joshua 4...twelve stones stacked by the twelve tribes of Israel after crossing the Jordan River

Joshua 7...pile of stones from Achan's stoning marking the Valley of Trouble

Hmmm...it's funny how my mind works...lol! Now back to the original point of this news coverage...

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This NPR story goes on to speak of one man's perspective on the 2010 Olympic symbol and a bit of the historic purpose of inuksuks. Peter Irnig, an Inuit cultural teacher, explains that Inuksuks are used for navigation purposes or markers for hunting and food caches. Inuksuks are built as one column. The 2010 Olympic symbol (supposedly built in honor of the Inuit culture) has at its base two columns and is therefore a Inunnguaq, not an Inuksuk. In the NPR coverage, Irnig states that "people rarely stack rocks resembling humans, as it is a symbol that someone committed suicide or a murder took place at the spot.
Well in a way, this symbol of the Inunnguaq, though controversial, may be oddly appropriate. Consider, sadly, the loss of Georgian Nodar Kumaritashvili, who "was killed by the Whistler during his training run" just hours before the February 12th, 2010 Olympic opening ceremonies.

The Inunnguaq-a symbol of human death and suffering as the symbol for the 2010 Winter Olympics?? There is also this perspective (simply my opinion)-what of the emphasis on "how many medals each country amasses" during the games, as opposed to an interest in and emphasis on the skill and sacrifice of the each of the athletes who compete, regardless of winning a medal or not? The heavy emphasis on "medals won" during the Olympic games, in particular, drives me crazy each time the games air. Maybe the Inunnguaq is a symbol of the sacrificial death of the human spirit to the god of competition...hmmm...something to consider.

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Back to my first point...regardless of the underlying and controversial nature surrounding the 2010 Olympic games symbol...I still find myself amazed at how these "coincidences" (stacking rocks mentioned as something spiritual) occur across cultural and historical divides...events/traditions from different cultures crisscrossing over vast spans of time pulling up similar responses from "us humans"...no matter how different or competitive we attempt to be.

Stacking rocks...telling stories to be recalled for generations...

this post dedicated to Nodar Kumaritashvili

Monday, November 16, 2009

On again, off again

Sometimes breaks are needed...a timeout to get your head unwrapped from all the demanding pressures that "threaten to undo one's sanity". I'm sobered by how many times I've felt I needed a break since I got back from my August trip. Change can do that to you and the changes have been coming at me fast and furious! I can't seem to keep up [and neither can my computer, for that matter].

Anyway I'm going to write some therapeutic free verse over the next few months [when my computer will allow it]. Free verse is my breath of fresh air...my reach for sanity...writing like this provides me with those few moments when I feel most alive...and I am so thankful for the freedom I have to express myself through the written word!

Unwind
I'm thinkin' I need another break from all this insanity.
The mind games and manipulations threaten to undo me...
i look into the future and only see it vaguely
so i've got to hang on for now, because
to jump without a parachute...Hold up!...pause...
Now take a moment...are you about to make
or break yourself? i know i need to think of what's at stake...
but seriously i'm thinking 'bout jumping off the cliff,
not a real one silly, just the cliff of conformity...stiff
with age, my joints are aching...is that lactic acid
building up? do i simply need a good massage to rid
my body of these toxic emotions that lead me to think
that i'd rather take my chances than continue to stink
like rotting meat left out too long...no...it's not over
something new is about to begin...but when?! Stir
my imagination with the winds of change. Just keep
it up and soon i'll take flight. No, we'll not weep,
for change is often the catalyst of renewal,
and thank God i've got hope 'cus i'm no fool.
I'll someday soon wrap my mind and heart
around this one and and fall forward with a start,
past the fear that holds me back. i think, therefore
i regret, but if I listen to my heart, and soar
instead, out beyond the trepidations, i may find
that I can finally let go and unwind.
-tkaeu

(this piece is dedicated to Hilary Phillips-November 2009...
here's believing you'll soar over what's lies ahead
{like a breeze girlie!}
and come back sooner, than later,
to settle down once again somewhere safe and warm!)

Monday, September 7, 2009

I must be a socialist and "horror of horrors" my parents must be socialists too (though undeclared, of course)

So what about you? Are you potentially a socialist, too, and don't even know it??!! Preposterous??!

Well, in case you're concerned about these questions and/or conclusions in the above title, please take time to read on...I implore you to read the comments/speech below and ask yourself how many times you've heard your own parents, grandparents, teachers, relatives "indoctrinate you" with these very same values, thoughts, beliefs. And oh no!! could it possibly be that even you have espoused the same "political, leftist rhetoric" to your very own children?!!

Just take this following test...read the speech below and ask yourself "How often have I heard these things said to me or have said them to my own children, niece, nephew, grandchild, etc?"??
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Hello everyone - how's everybody doing today? I'm here with students at Wakefield High School in Arlington, Virginia. And we've got students tuning in from all across America, kindergarten through twelfth grade. I'm glad you all could join us today.

I know that for many of you, today is the first day of school. And for those of you in kindergarten, or starting middle or high school, it's your first day in a new school, so it's understandable if you're a little nervous. I imagine there are some seniors out there who are feeling pretty good right now, with just one more year to go. And no matter what grade you're in, some of you are probably wishing it were still summer, and you could've stayed in bed just a little longer this morning.

I know that feeling. When I was young, my family lived in Indonesia for a few years, and my mother didn't have the money to send me where all the American kids went to school. So she decided to teach me extra lessons herself, Monday through Friday - at 4:30 in the morning. Now I wasn't too happy about getting up that early. A lot of times, I'd fall asleep right there at the kitchen table. But whenever I'd complain, my mother would just give me one of those looks and say, "This is no picnic for me either, buster."

So I know some of you are still adjusting to being back at school. But I'm here today because I have something important to discuss with you. I'm here because I want to talk with you about your education and what's expected of all of you in this new school year. Now I've given lots of speeches about education. And I've talked a lot about responsibility. I've talked about your teachers' responsibility for inspiring you, and pushing you to learn. I've talked about your parents' responsibility for making sure you stay on track, and get your homework done, and don't spend every waking hour in front of the TV or with that Xbox. I've talked about your government's responsibility for setting high standards, supporting teachers and principals, and turning around schools that aren't working where students aren't getting the opportunity they deserve.

But at the end of the day, we can have the most dedicated teachers, the most supportive parents, and the best schools in the world - and none of it will matter unless all of you fulfill your responsibilities. Unless you show up to those schoools; pay attention to those teachers; listen to your parents, grandparents, and other adults; and put in the hard work it takes to succeed.
And that's what I want to focus on today; the responsibility each of you has for your education. I want to start with the responsibility you have to yourself.

Every single one of you has something you're good at. Every single one of you has something to offer. And you have a responsibility to yourself to discover what that is. That's the opportunity an education can provide. Maybe you could be a good writer - maybe even good enough to write a book or articles in a newspaper - but you might not know it until you write a paper for your English class. Maybe you could be an innovator or an inventor - maybe even good enough to come up with the next iPhone or a new medicine or vaccine - but you might not know it until you do a project for your science class. Maybe you could be a mayor or a Senator or a Supreme Court justice, but you might not know that until you join student government or the debate team.
And no matter what you want to do with your life - I guarantee that you'll need an education to do it. You want to be a doctor, or a teacher, or a police officer? You want to be a nurse or an architect, a lawyer or a member of the military? You're going to need a good education for every one of those careers. You can't drop out of school and just drop into a good job. You've got to work for it and train for it and learn for it.

And this isn't just important for your own life and your own future. What you make of your education will decide nothing less than the future of this country. What you're learning in school today will determine whether we as a nation can meet our greatest challenges in the future. You'll need the knowledge and problem-solving skills you learn in science and math to cure diseases like cancer and AIDS, and to develop new energy technologies and protect our environment. You'll need the insights and critical thinking skills you gain in history and social studies to fight poverty and homelessness, crime and discrimination, and make our nation more fair and more free. You'll need the creativity and ingenuity you develop in all your classes to build new companies that will create new jobs and boost our economy. We need every single one of you to develop your talents, skills and intellect so you can help solve our most difficult problems. If you don't do that - if you quit school - you're not just quitting on yourself, you're quitting on your country.

Now I know it's not always easy to do well in school. I know a lot of you have challenges in your lives right now that can make it hard to focus on your schoolwork. I get it. I know what that's like. My father left my family when I was two years old, and I was raised by a single mother who struggled at times to pay the bills and wasn't always able to give us things the other kids had. There were times when I missed having a father in my life. There were times when I was lonely and felt like I didn't fit in. So I wasn't always as focused as I should have been. I did some things I'm not proud of, and got in more trouble than I should have. And my life could have easily taken a turn for the worse. But I was fortunate. I got a lot of second chances and had the opportunity to go to college, and law school, and follow my dreams.

My wife, our First Lady Michelle Obama, has a similar story. Neither of her parents had gone to college, and they didn't have much. But they worked hard, and she worked hard, so that she could go to the best schools in the country.

Some of you might not have those advantages. Maybe you don't have adults in your life who give you the support that you need. Maybe someone in your family has lost their job, and there's not enough money to go around. Maybe you live in a neighborhood where you don't feel safe, or have friends pressuring you to do things you know aren't right. But at the end of the day, the circumstances of your life - what you look like, where you come from, how much money you have, what you've got going at home - that's no excuse for neglecting your homework or having a bad attitude. That's no excuse for talking back to your teacher, or cutting class, or dropping out of school. That's no excuse for not trying.

Where you are right now doesn't have to determine where you'll end up. No one's written your destiny for you. Here in America, you write your own destiny. You make your own future.
That's what young people like you are doing every day, all across America. Young people like Jazmin Perez, from Roma, Texas. Jazmin didn't speak English when she first started school. Hardly anyone in her hometown went to college, and neither of her parents had gone either. But she worked hard, earned good grades, got a scholarship to Brown University, and is now in graduate school, studying public health, on her way to being Dr. Jazmin Perez.

I'm thinking about Andoni Schultz, from Los Altos, California, who's fought brain cancer since he was three. He's endured all sorts of treatments and surgeries, one of which affected his memory so it took him much longer - hundreds of extra hours - to do his schoolwork. But he never fell behind, and he's headed to college this fall.

And then there's Shantell Steve, from my hometown of Chicago, Illinois. Even when bouncing from foster home to foster home in the toughest neighborhoods, she managed to get a job at a local health center; start a program to keep young people out of gangs; and she's on track to graduate high school with honors and go to college.

Jazmin, Andoni, and Shantell aren't any different from any of you. They faced challenges in their lives just like you do. But they refused to give up. They chose to take responsibility for their education and set goals for themselves. And I expect all of you to do the same. That's why today, I'm calling on each of you to set your own goals for your education - and to do everything you can to meet them. Your goal can be something as simple as doing all your homework, paying attention in class, or spending time each day reading a book. Maybe you'll decide to get involved in an extracurricular activity, or volunteer in your community. Maybe you'll decide to stand up for kids who are being teased or bullied because of who they are or how they look, because you believe, like I do, that all kids deserve a safe environment to study and learn. Maybe you'll decide to take better care of yourself, so you can be more ready to learn. And along those lines, I hope you'll wash your hands a lot, and stay home from school when you don't feel well, so we can keep people from getting the flu this fall and winter.

Whatever you resolve to do, I want you to commit to do it. I want you to really work at it.
I know that sometimes you get the sense from TV that you can be rich and successful without any hard work -- that your ticket to success is through rapping or basketball or being a reality TV star, when chances are, you're not going to be any of those things.

But the truth is, being successful is hard. You won't love every subject you study. You won't click with every teacher. Not every homework assignment will seem completely relevant to your life right this minute. And you won't necessarily succeed at everything the first time you try. That's ok. Some of the most successful people in the world are the ones who've had the most failures. JK Rowling's first Harry Potter book was rejected twelve times before it was finally published. Michael Jordan was cut from his high school basketball team, and he lost hundreds of games and missed thousands of shots during his career. But he once said, "I have failed over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed."

These people succeeded because they understand that you can't let your failures define you - you have to let them teach you. You have to let them show you what to do differently next time. If you get in trouble, that doesn't mean you're a troublemaker, it means you need to try harder to behave. If you get a bad grade, that doesn't mean you are stupid, it just means you need to spend more time studying.

No one's born being good at things, you become good at things through hard work. You're not a varsity athlete the first time you play a new sport. You don't hit every note the first time you sing a song. You've got to practice. It's the same with your schoolwork. You might have to do a math problem a few times before you get it right, or read something a few times before you understand it, or do a few drafts of a paper before it's good enough to hand in.

Don't be afraid to ask questions. Don't be afraid to ask for help when you need it. I do that every day. Asking for help isn't a sign of weakness, it's a sign of strength. It shows you have the courage to admit when you don't know something, and to learn something new. So find an adult you trust - a parent, grandparent, or teacher, a coach or counselor - and ask them to help you stay on track to meet your goals. And even when you're struggling, even when you're discouraged, nd you feel like other people have given up on you - don't ever give up on yourself. Because when you give up on yourself, you give up on your country.

The story of America isn't about people who quit when things got tough. It's about people who kept going, who tried harder, who loved their country too much to do anything less than their best. It's the story of students who sat where you sit 250 years ago, and went on to wage a revolution and found this nation. Students who sat where you sit 75 years ago who overcame a Depression and won a world war; who fought for civil rights and put a man on the moon. Students who sat where you sit 20 years ago founded Google, Twitter, and Facebook, and changed the way we communicate with each other.

So today, I want to ask you, what's your contribution going to be? What problems are you going to solve? What discoveries are you going to make? What will a president who comes here in twenty or fifty or one hundred years say about what all of you did for this country?

Your families, your teachers and I are doing everything we can to make sure you have the education you need to answer these questions. I'm working hard to fix up your classrooms and get you books, equipment, and computers you need to learn. But you've got to do your part too. So I expect you to get serious this year. I expect you to put your best effort into everything you do. I expect great things from each of you. So don't let us down - don't let your family or your country or yourself down. Make us all proud. I know you can do it. Thank-you, God bless you, and God bless America.
Back to School Event Arlington, Virginia September 8, 2009
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So what can be said about the comments made to students across America by President Obama? Is the above speech socialist propaganda? An attempt at brainwashing by a man who could usher in the antichrist? An plot for mind control?? I mean the nerve! Our PRESIDENT (not your local sex offender) wants to speak a message of exhortation, motivation, encouragement, challenge and inspiration to students all across America. Such an uproar! Such hoopla! Over what?! All I have to say is people are entitled to their own beliefs and opinions, but I seriously have to question the motivation behind people removing children from school and speaking so adamantly against the President of the United States addressing students. We should be proud that he is willing and desires to take the time to do so.

As far as the comments above about "being socialist and accusing my parent's of being closet socialists". Well...all I can say is that my parents taught me the majority of the values and information spoken of in President Obama's speech as I was growing up. Every day I stand on a unit in juvenile detention, in one form or another, I am attempting to convey the message above spoken by President Obama.

I keep hearing so many speak of President Obama as a socialist...particularly since the plan for him to speak directly to our nation's children. So if President Obama's desire to give the above speech to children across America is even more proof of his socialist agenda, than I have to admit that I, too, am a socialist and so was my upbringing.
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Now before you get "your panties in a twist", I will finish this post by saying "all my comments about socialism in this post" are what you call SARCASM people!!!! President Obama isn't a socialist. I am not a socialist. My parents are not a socialists. Most of you and your parents are most likely not socialists. (Though, I have to admit, that if you really look into the history of socialism and socialist beliefs, IT'S NOT ALL EVIL. Believe it or not, there were even Christian socialists in America and the original pledge of allegiance for the United States of America was written by Francis Bellamy, a baptist minister and proclaimed Christian Socialist.)

This may also be time for some of you to do a "deep breathing exercise", particularly for those of you who have found your heart racing after reading this post. I truly had no intention of inducing heart attacks or panic attacks with this post, but I'm reminded that somewhere in one of my many boxes there is a plague with my name on it "Tammie - Truth Seeker". So be it.

Friday, September 4, 2009

Troops battle not only the Taliban, but the opium trade

I heard this news story on "Here and Now" today about heroin addiction and found it interesting (considering I work with so many teens with potential drug addiction problems). You may find it interesting as well...take a listen to this interview with Richie Farrell-once addicted to heroin and now a successful journalist, author, professor, and screenplay writer. I am excited to read his memoir and possibly share it with the young people I work with in juvenile detention.

As I listened to this interview, I also couldn't help but think of Afghanistan and the opium trade that surrounds our own U.S. soldiers and most likely touches their lives daily. Hopefully these two stories about Aghanistan opium trade and heroin addiction do not come together for our soldiers in the years to come. If they do...talk about the costs of war!!!

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Have you heard??






Moranda Hern and Kaylei Deakin...have you heard of these two young women? Are you aware of what they are up to?? Well...they are on a mission to provide support and inspiration to young females ages 13 to 18 who are from military families. They are in the process of planning a conference called the Sisterhood of the Traveling BDUs...their desire is for young women to unite, be inspired and to be leaders in their communities. Check out their Youtube video and their project info on dosomething.org. Props to NPR and All Thing Considered for covering this story and spreading the word!

I am unsure how much progress these two young ladies have made thus far, but I hope to make an attempt to contact them and determine whether or not there is any way to support them in their dream to make a difference. I will keep you updated.

You may wonder why I would be interested or drawn to this story...well for a couple reasons...
1)here are two young women wanting to uplift and inspire other young women who are possibly hurting
2)my friend, Chelle's daughter, Hilary, is currently in the military
3)teens doing something positive

If you are interested in learning more about this project, you may want to check out this blog post of Air Guard Spouse, as well.

U Go Girls!!

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Freedom?



freedom-available to some and an enigma to many...
...from whom and what? are we really free?
are we able to do as we please? do we bend
our knee to God or fame or self and spend
our life chasing a fruitless existence only to wake
and find our truth to be a lie? will we take
before being taken like Madoff? or sleep
to never be waken? Michael, what deep
pain were you attempting to escape in this life
and where are you now? what about the strife
and bitterness that breeds cancer and sadly
all the hatred that still lingers USA, while gradually
the freedoms that bring us together tear us apart?
are we really celebrating with a free heart?
tkaeu 07/09

We do have freedoms to celebrate! But we also have much work ahead...as a country and individually. You can't really change a country without people allowing their hearts to be changed. Some thoughts that come to mind:
Respecting other's differences
Allowing others the freedom to live life as they desire
The Golden Rule - treating others as we want to be treated

Yet it is sobering to then reflect on these statements as well:
Then you will know the truth and the truth will set you free. (John 8:32)
For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it. What good is it for a man to gain the whole world and yet lose or forfeit his very self? (Luke 9:24-25)
...be transformed by the renewing of your mind... (Romans 12:2)



When I feel the most free...
being outdoors.

Maybe this is because it is also when I feel closest to God.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Itching to get back to writing...

Where have I been? Focused on healing my knee, improving my health and my attitude.

My goal is to write more often...but most likely less on each blog. Honestly I think shorter is better! It is just easier to follow. Anyway I'm still attempting to find the focus of this blog...so excuse me as I flounder around trying out new things.

My family is on FACEBOOK and they've asked me to get my own facebook page and join them. I have yet to do so though, because I've already put so much time and effort into this site, my wordpress blog and myspace...now to begin again on facebook?? Eventually I may find a way to take the three places I blog and combine them into one or connect them to facebook. I just have not found the time or motivation to begin again on yet another site. Just how does one manage so many sites and actually "live" life?!? There is much I have yet to figure out in life!

Oh I recently ran across a new musician that I encourage you to check out! REGINA SPECTOR!

Though I am a great lover of music and have at times memorized the words to countless songs I sung in high school age performances of one kind or another, I cannot for the life of me remember the lyrics to popular songs! It drives me crazy!!! So naturally I could relate to the comments made during an interview with Regina on NPR about forgetting the words to a favorite song. (here's a bit of the lyrics to Et pronounced "eat" and you can check out Regina on youtube singing Et on her new cd Far)


It's like forgetting the words to your favorite song
You can't believe it
You were always singing along
It was so easy and the words so sweet
You can't remember
You try to feel the beat

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet, eet, eet, eet
Eeeeeeeeeeeeeteeet, eet, eet, eet

I was amused and intrigued by the free-flowin, yet deep, and at the same time, exhuberant way this musician expresses herself in her words and through her music.

Regina was born in Moscow in 1980. Her family is jewish. Her mom is a music professor and her father plays violin and is a photographer. Her family left the USSR in 1989 and lived in Austria and Italy and eventually settled in New York. Regina began playing the piano when she was young and studied classical piano when she was 17 years old. She began songwriting when she was 16 years old. You can read more about her at wikipedia.

A bit from the NPR interview with David Greene on Morning Edition...Spektor is a petite woman with striking red hair and bright lipstick. She writes about what's on her mind, and her music often defies explanation. But she says that doesn't concern her. "If I could explain every word of this song, then I wouldn't have been very inspired when I wrote it. I would have been more crafty and intellectual," she says. "I would really hate it if I could call up Kafka or Hemingway or Salinger and any question I could throw at them they would have an answer. That's the magic when you read or hear something wonderful — there's no one that has all the answers."

However, that's not to say she doesn't want people to look for deeper meaning behind her songs. "It's not like I have all the answers," she says.

You can listen to the NPR interview and/or check out this video...Laughing With is one of my favorites on the Far cd...though each song has its own unique message and makes me smile. =D I was unable to download the videos for whatever reason (maybe I'm out of practice).

In case you have difficulty understanding the chorus lyrics to "Laughing With" as I did...here are the words...but check out the video because the entirety of the song is extremely thought provoking.

*Chorus*
But God can be funny
At a cocktail party when listening to a good God-themed joke, or
Or when the crazies say He hates us
And they get so red in the head you think they’re ‘bout to choke
God can be funny,
When told he’ll give you money if you just pray the right way
And when presented like a genie who does magic like Houdini
Or grants wishes like Jiminy Cricket and Santa Claus
God can be so hilarious
Ha ha
Ha ha

If you think belief in God is a joke...then you've never really faced hard times in your life. Listening to the lyrics of Laughing With gives me chills. It is pretty amazing to think that she is singing these lyrics on mainstream stations.

Ok at this point in the post you may be thinking...shorter posts?!? Well...I've never been really good at saying what I want to say in as few words as possible so...all in due time...lol.

This post is dedicated to music lovers everywhere who can't remember the words to their favorite songs & the subsequent AWE felt of those who can :)