Monday, November 16, 2009

On again, off again

Sometimes breaks are needed...a timeout to get your head unwrapped from all the demanding pressures that "threaten to undo one's sanity". I'm sobered by how many times I've felt I needed a break since I got back from my August trip. Change can do that to you and the changes have been coming at me fast and furious! I can't seem to keep up [and neither can my computer, for that matter].

Anyway I'm going to write some therapeutic free verse over the next few months [when my computer will allow it]. Free verse is my breath of fresh air...my reach for sanity...writing like this provides me with those few moments when I feel most alive...and I am so thankful for the freedom I have to express myself through the written word!

Unwind
I'm thinkin' I need another break from all this insanity.
The mind games and manipulations threaten to undo me...
i look into the future and only see it vaguely
so i've got to hang on for now, because
to jump without a parachute...Hold up!...pause...
Now take a moment...are you about to make
or break yourself? i know i need to think of what's at stake...
but seriously i'm thinking 'bout jumping off the cliff,
not a real one silly, just the cliff of conformity...stiff
with age, my joints are aching...is that lactic acid
building up? do i simply need a good massage to rid
my body of these toxic emotions that lead me to think
that i'd rather take my chances than continue to stink
like rotting meat left out too long...no...it's not over
something new is about to begin...but when?! Stir
my imagination with the winds of change. Just keep
it up and soon i'll take flight. No, we'll not weep,
for change is often the catalyst of renewal,
and thank God i've got hope 'cus i'm no fool.
I'll someday soon wrap my mind and heart
around this one and and fall forward with a start,
past the fear that holds me back. i think, therefore
i regret, but if I listen to my heart, and soar
instead, out beyond the trepidations, i may find
that I can finally let go and unwind.
-tkaeu

(this piece is dedicated to Hilary Phillips-November 2009...
here's believing you'll soar over what's lies ahead
{like a breeze girlie!}
and come back sooner, than later,
to settle down once again somewhere safe and warm!)